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Been horridly depresed the last 10 days or so. My tooth infection is gone, but about 10 days ago Athena (my fav. kitty) went missing. I searched the feilds for her but couldn't call for her because I had only been taking my meds for like.. a day at that point, couldn't move my jaw at all.

So yeah.. Its like losing my best friend. Everything reminds me of her and every time Gorge (her nearly twin broher) walks into a room I think its her. ._. I've been checking the county shelter site every day and just checked the one in the city today and theres cat there who looks like her. So even though its unlikely she ended up in the city I plan on calling about her and asking a few things that help deermine if she is infect my cat.

Hopefully she is. I did manage to clam myself down the last 3 days or so but all of a suden today I just started crying. Now I'm depressed again too and can't focus on anything, like video games or anime.

Sigh.. If we cant find Athena by the start of May we're probably gonna get me a new kitten (for me and our not-so kitten who misses Athena too.) and maybe a puppy. o_x; I don't want a puppy, but some people my dad knows has a few and they're so cute and chubby. They'll be weened in a week or two so, and my parents are really wanting one. I just know I'll be the one who ends up walkin it and scooping up its poopy though. D: Ugh.

I'm also dissapointed because I don't think I get to goto Chicago this May after all. Moms getting sicker again and dad probably cant get enough days off work to stay home with her.. sigh. I hate feeling responsable. :/ I'll have to tell Emily and Shar soon. Maybe tomorrow, if they're on AIM. ~_~
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On April 19th, 2008 09:12 pm (UTC), procne commented:
*Hugs* I'm sorry =\ I know how that feels, to be uber depressed like that *has been for the past... month*. And the random bouts of crying... I think it's probably normal. You'll stabilize for a few days and then at random you'll cry. And then you'll go back to being ok =\ *Hugs again* I hope you find her.
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On April 20th, 2008 12:34 am (UTC), lilly_hime replied:
Thanks. ;_; I'm so close to giving up. The cat at the pound is having kittens later this week, so theres no way she could be my kitty. :/ At least in your case Josh? called you and isn't missing/dead.
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On April 20th, 2008 04:54 am (UTC), procne replied:
I wouldn't give up, not yet. I know this might sound crazy, but do you have the 'dread feeling'? As in, do you feel like there really is no reason to hope? Because if you don't, definitely don't give up yet. I know it sounds kinda weird, but I just wouldn't give up yet. And that really sucks that it wasn't her at the pound. =\ *Hugs*

Yes. That is a good thing. But hopefully you will found your kitty. I couldn't imagine losing my favourite cat... *Hugs more*
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On April 20th, 2008 01:23 pm (UTC), lilly_hime replied:
Ah.. dread feeling? Hm. I'm rather apathetic actually in RL, so after almost 2 weeks I don't feel anything now, aside from the mood-swing on friday, but I think that was the anime openings fualt (the song was about someone looking for someone who was already gone forever.)

Thanks though~ *hugs*
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On April 20th, 2008 03:35 pm (UTC), undead_man commented:
I'm so sorry your cat is missing. It's heartbreaking, I bet.

And don't worry if you can't come up here in May, real life always takes over having fun. :\
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On April 22nd, 2008 05:25 am (UTC), lilly_hime replied:
It was heart breaking, I couldn't do anything but sleep for a couple days. Though that could also have been a sideeffect of the medicine I was taking. :/

And I'm sorry Em. ;_; The guy he works for doesnt have enough people to cover his shifts for more then maybe 1 or 2 days, and generally his workdays are lke 14 hours long.. so blaah. D:
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On April 21st, 2008 08:09 am (UTC), metakun commented:
Can't say I've felt the same since I don't have cats. Of course, I have been depressed before. I would be worried if you had the dread feeling... makes it seem you might do something drastic @_@. Anyway, I hope your cat pops up soon. Stay positive; perhaps you can do something about it. If not, doing anything is better than nothing~

It's too bad that you can't go to Chicago, but yea it sounds like your mom needs you. Hope everything gets better for you Lil. Come online sometime, and I'll give you a glomp :3

*Glomps from LJ while watching the other readers stare and think how stupid I sound* ;D
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